Hey there luv!
What have you been up to? Hope all is well! You didn’t respond to my post, so I decided to trust my gut feeling and move on asap; I traveled to Spain with my new fling. Going on a little vaca with someone I just made out with (although we ‘ve known each other for about a year now)… maybe a mistake… I thought I ‘d never find out if I didn’t try.
Needless to say, I had an amazing time. We were holding hands and kissing all the time, as he had predicted we had loads to talk about.. both of us had travelled extensively and we share a common passion for our work… and needless to say the sex was amazing. Everything seemed perfect and I felt smart: I ‘ve escaped the Mr. Unavailable who broke up with me and I had moved on to something new and exciting, which (for the time being) seemed unbelievingly uncomplicated.
But something didn’t quite fit. In the back of my mind I was wondering how it would have been if I was together with my ex, the guy that had just broken if off with me… I mean everything was perfect just two weeks ago, we seemed to be in love, my ex even introduced me to his parents, only to break up with me a few days later saying he didn’t want a relationship… What the heck is wrong with guys???? Once they feel that dating starts evolving to a relationship, they pack up and vaporize.
I quickly shove off these thoughts and decided to live the moment enjoying my mini-honeymoon with the new sweetheart. Two days go by. And suddenly there it was: a text message. My ex is asking me where I ‘ve been. I momentarily hesitate, but I reply. He keeps texting even up to today.
I wonder: is it ego or fear of losing me? Should I ignore him and move on with the new guy or should I give him another chance? I feel enthusiastic about the new guy but I am in love with my ex.
And yet again I am asking you: Is it possible to bring back the enthusiasm once it’s faded out?
xxx
Courtney
