Nicki,
Sorry I have been out of touch for so long. Guess what – I ‘ve been dating someone for 20 days now (I met him back in the US about a year ago) and it has been amazing ever since. It feels so right! It almost makes me feel stupid for all the sleepless nights and endless conversations with my friends about guys whom I was trying to figure out. I should have dumped all these Mr. Unavailables right there on the spot. And I should have known that as it is now is just exactly how dating should be. I hang out with him almost every day and talk for hours, he goes out of his way to see me,we have so much fun together, there’s so much chemistry, I can’t stop thinking about him! And it doesn’t stop there. We have exactly the same hobbies, we like the same food, listen to the same music, we even read the same books. I look at his bookcase and it’s like I’m looking at my boookcase… sometimes it scares me how much we are alike. And it’s the first time that I am not thinking “where is this going? What will happen? Am I his girlfriend?”.
So far so good. But it can’t be all that mellow or simple, can it? Life’s just too complicated for that. First of all, he broke up with his ex girlfriend of seven years (!) four months ago (damn am unlucky!). She wanted to move in with him and he said no and broke up. But he never ever talks about her and I can feel that he has moved on with me. The second thing is… the guy reminds me terribly of my ex that is not texting. Not by appearance, but his habbits… he kisses the same, he talks the same, he touches me the same way. And I mean like exactly the same way. This is freaking me out! It’s only small things, but it feels exactly like my ex. I feel like I am getting a second chance with him only this time it’s with someone who’s worth it. Last but not least, my guy booked a skiing weekend for us for V-day. This should be great, it’s just that… it might be too enthusiastic too fast. But I can’t control it… I just want to be around him every single moment, I am already so much in love and it feels perfect and unique – but somehow I’m afraid I ‘ll get burnt just like I did with my ex. Am I making my life unneccessarily complicated or should I be cautious?
What do you think?
xx
Courtney
